The Weight of a Number: What We Talk About When We Talk About Merit

The Weight of a Number: What We Talk About When We Talk About Merit

4.2

GPA

The two folders feel identical in my hands. Same weight, same glossy cardstock from the university print shop, number 2. Inside, the documents are clipped in the same order, a dance of bureaucratic precision. The transcript is on top. Student A: 4.2 GPA. Student B: 4.2 GPA. The number is a clean, hard fact. It feels solid, dependable. A piece of granite in a world of sand.

But it’s a lie.

Not a deliberate deception, but a lie of omission so profound it warps the very space around it.

4.2

Student A: working 22 hrs/week, calculus on break, fed sister.

4.2

Student B: private tutors, SAT prep, parents proofreading essays.

The number is the same. The journey was not. And the application, in its elegant, brutal simplicity, treats them as equals.

We have a deep, almost religious reverence for metrics like this. We call it ‘merit.’ We pretend it’s an objective measure of worth, a pure signal in a noisy world. It’s not.

What we call merit is often just a photograph of accumulated advantage.

Merit

It’s the final, polished data point at the end of a long chain of access, resources, and coaching. It measures a student’s ability to navigate a very specific, very expensive game. And we’ve convinced ourselves that winning this game is synonymous with being the best candidate.

My stomach lurches with a familiar, sickening feeling, the same one I had last Tuesday. I was trying to coordinate a complicated family matter via text and accidentally sent a long, vulnerable message meant for my brother to a work colleague-a project manager named Dave. My thumb froze over the screen. There was no ‘unsend.’ Dave, who only knows me through polite emails and Zoom calls about server capacity, now had this raw, contextless blast of emotion.

“Not sure I was supposed to see this?”

The damage wasn’t in the information itself, but in its arrival without any of the necessary framework. To him, it must have seemed insane. To my brother, it would have made perfect sense.

A 4.2 GPA is a text message sent to the wrong person.

4.2

The Number

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Dave

The Recipient

The admissions officer is Dave. They get the number, but they get none of the context that gives it meaning. They just see the data point, clean and sterile, and are asked to make a monumental decision based on it. We strip the story away because stories are messy and complicated, and numbers are easy to rank in a spreadsheet. It’s an institutional abdication of responsibility, disguised as objectivity.

I find myself railing against the tyranny of numbers, which is a bit hypocritical. I know it is. Just yesterday I was reading a report that stated companies with diverse leadership teams are 32% more likely to outperform their peers. See? I’m using a number to make a point about the failure of other numbers. We criticize the system and then use its tools to do so. The contradiction is baked into the very language we have to discuss the problem.

The Outperformance Edge

100%

Homogenous Teams

+32%

Diverse Leadership

Companies with diverse leadership teams are 32% more likely to outperform.

Let me tell you about a man I know named Thomas B.K. Thomas is a disaster recovery coordinator. His college GPA was a dismal 2.2. He wouldn’t make it past the first-round algorithm at any prestigious institution today. His resume is a collection of jobs that sound unimpressive on paper: logistics assistant, warehouse foreman, dispatcher. But a few years ago, when a hurricane knocked out power and communication across two states, Thomas did something extraordinary. While the official digital systems were failing, he took over. With a yellow legal pad, 2 landlines that miraculously still worked, and an encyclopedic knowledge of regional trucking routes, he manually rerouted 122 different supply convoys carrying medical supplies and food. He saved lives. He solved an impossible, dynamic, high-stakes problem with ingenuity and grace under pressure.

Where does that show up on an application? It doesn’t.

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Ingenuity Under Pressure

There’s no box for ‘logistical genius during a natural disaster.’ There’s no standardized test for ‘remaining calm while the world is ending.’ The qualities we desperately need in leaders, doctors, engineers, and neighbors-resilience, creativity, ethical courage, practical intelligence-are invisible to the metrics we use to define merit. We’ve built a system that filters for people who are good at school, and we are surprised when we end up with leaders who are only good at school.

So what’s the alternative?

It’s not about abandoning standards; it’s about finding better ones. It’s a shift from measuring proxies to measuring performance. This looks like a portfolio of code, a business plan designed to solve a local problem, or the proven ability to lead a team-skills honed in focused environments like a High School Summer Internship. These are artifacts of capability, not just grades. They provide a signal of what a student can do, not just what they can remember for a test. This kind of merit is demonstrated, not declared. It’s Thomas B.K.’s yellow legal pad, filled with scribbled routes that saved a community.

This debate isn’t just about getting into college. It’s a proxy war for our national soul. It’s about whether we value inherited advantage or earned skill. It’s about what kind of society we want to build. Do we want one run by the people who were best at preparing for the test, or by the people who are best at handling the storm when it arrives? Right now, our selection process is heavily biased toward the former. The quiet accumulation of privilege-the tutors, the prep courses, the legacy status, the unpaid internships secured through family friends-creates a powerful tailwind for some, while others fight a headwind from the moment they are born.

Measuring players, not mountains.

Starting in Valleys

Standing on Mountains

We are measuring the height of the players without accounting for the fact that some are standing on mountains and others are starting in valleys. The number itself has become the goal, not what the number is supposed to represent. It’s a map that has replaced the territory.

Elite University Admissions Disparity

1%

Top 1% Income

62%

Bottom 62% Income

A recent analysis of 2,192 elite university students found that more came from the top 1% of the income scale than the entire bottom 62%.

4.2

Unchanged

The two folders sit on the desk, their weight unchanged. The number, 4.2, stares back, impassive and absolute. It tells you nothing about the exhaustion in a student’s bones after a double shift, or their quiet pride in helping their family survive. It tells you nothing about their ability to manage a convoy in a hurricane. And maybe that’s the only part that really matters.